Love Bombing, Manipulation, My Story

This is how Vince Beggs was trying to lighten things up!

I set out to post all of his cards and ALL of the selfies he sent from December 21, 2016, the night he assaulted me, until August 30, 2017.  However, in trying to organize everything by date, I decided it was a waste of time, plus the need to see the proof to reassure myself… Continue reading This is how Vince Beggs was trying to lighten things up!

Bad Days, Healing Stages, My Story

What I want to say to those who make us feel shame.

I wrote this when I wanted to show and make those who victimize victims of abuse feel shame.  Even those who come from generations of abuse and have gone on being with the same man as their father repeating the same patterns and passing down destructive behaviors. And then a good friend pointed out that… Continue reading What I want to say to those who make us feel shame.

Gaslighting, Healing Stages, My Story

Dear future or current supplier, according to the ever changing story, Brain trauma and destroying my inner ear is the way Mr. VP broke up with me on December 21, 2016.  

“A little less than 5 years” was the lie he told when he said he broke up with me on the 21st of December, 2016.  I guess he considers causing brain trauma and destroying someone’s ear the way to break up.  Or he could have been screwing around before he assaulted me or after and… Continue reading Dear future or current supplier, according to the ever changing story, Brain trauma and destroying my inner ear is the way Mr. VP broke up with me on December 21, 2016.  

Gaslighting, Manipulation, My Story

He raped my soul, physically maimed and emotionally gutted me, and said to kill myself to put him “out of his misery.”

This evil monster was driving me to the brinks of suicide going as far as telling me to kill myself.  If I sit with the sadness I have to accept having been conned - I have to face that he emotionally and intellectually raped me, and gained control over my mind.  He raped my soul. … Continue reading He raped my soul, physically maimed and emotionally gutted me, and said to kill myself to put him “out of his misery.”

My Story

Why Post Personal Exchanges?

My sarcasm and attempts to be funny helps manage the pain of having fallen for these empty words.  I re read what I wrote and realized lightening it up is my way of reconciling for feeling stupid and embarrassed to have felt so connected.  Underneath the humor is a deep sense of violation that is… Continue reading Why Post Personal Exchanges?