Abuser, My Story

The Narcissistic Cycle of Abuse

I am glad to not understand or never be able to understand how people like him can sleep. About the Blog Categories Archives The Narcissistic Cycle of Abuse By Christine Hammond, MS, LMHC The cycle of abuse Lenore Walker (1979) coined of tension building, acting-out, reconciliation/honeymoon, and calm is useful in most abusive relationships. However, when… Continue reading The Narcissistic Cycle of Abuse


Dear Vince…

Letter resonates...only difference is I'm still picking up the pieces...   Tyler Nix There has never been a single moment in which I wished I never met you. Even I find that hard to believe, but it’s the truth. Before you, I had nothing to hold up to the light and point to and say,… Continue reading Dear Vince…


Trying to suck me in…

He made his blog private after it didn't accomplish what he had hoped for. And yes, despite knowing its only intent to have been to draw me in, react or do something stupid, it still got to me, and I did react a few weeks after it was published leaving a tearful message asking what he wanted… Continue reading Trying to suck me in…


Poems About Abuse

https://allpoetry.com/Coco_Chanel#t_main   Never Give Up How do I explain something I can’t understand? How do I explain that he hurt me in a way no one else can? How do I explain the scars that run so deep? How do I explain that they’re not something you can even feel or see?How I explain I… Continue reading Poems About Abuse


No, they don’t change.

Is Change Possible In An Abuser? September 5, 2013/148 Comments/in Get Help Today /by Kathryn Robinson People change. That small, two-word sentence is actually a huge, significant statement that carries a lot of weight. We grow up learning about change — the inevitability of it, the uncertainty it can bring. We change — our opinions,… Continue reading No, they don’t change.

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I’m laughing but it’s not funny..

He writes this, gives me jewelry and tells me he loves me so much he's risking going to jail for me.  Goes home and lies to everyone including his "therapist" and makes it seem like he's the victim who was being chased.  It's disturbing, isn't it? When I learn more details and am able to… Continue reading I’m laughing but it’s not funny..


Lies and more lies…

  Narcissist’ s controlling and manipulation techniques Gaslighting is a subtle, underground maltreatment, that can go unnoticed by the victim until it is too late. It penetrates you but it’s difficult to identify. Gaslighting is ambiguous, diffused, it is a dangerous kind of abuse. It leave no trace and you can’t prove it. Ambient abuse is… Continue reading Lies and more lies…


I hope someday I can feel sorry for him or not feel anything.  The man lost it because he couldn't keep the lies going considering he lives in the past caring more about not upsetting his ex or mother who tried over and over and over again to cause problems, which would have been okay but he… Continue reading


I needed to be reminded that only a monter can do this yet continue to believe he did nothing wrong

My ex-boyfriend, Vince, the good looking, charming, soft spoken man who I find I still have feelings for because I am crazy, did this to me.  I am posting these more for my own sanity than any other reason.  Being with him took a toll on my mental health.  He gaslighted me each time he… Continue reading I needed to be reminded that only a monter can do this yet continue to believe he did nothing wrong