Gaslighting, Manipulation, My Story

He raped my soul, physically maimed and emotionally gutted me, and said to kill myself to put him “out of his misery.”

This evil monster was driving me to the brinks of suicide going as far as telling me to kill myself.  If I sit with the sadness I have to accept having been conned - I have to face that he emotionally and intellectually raped me, and gained control over my mind.  He raped my soul. … Continue reading He raped my soul, physically maimed and emotionally gutted me, and said to kill myself to put him “out of his misery.”

Abuser, Bad Days, Gaslighting, Healing Stages, My Story, Uncategorized, Understanding Narcissistic Abuse

#nomoreshamingtheabused – kinda like that!

Can't miss kudos, likes, or the praise, but most important, can't miss The MASTER'S TEXT! no no no...:) In the mornings, it ALWAYS accompanied me into the bathroom. Even during my 3 a.m pee break! Gotta have it cause It's the only thing I’m connected to. I'll die if I don't make myself laugh. I have… Continue reading #nomoreshamingtheabused – kinda like that!

Healing Stages, My Story

That’s not your neck, it’s your shoulder. I didn’t cause all those bruises…you could have bumped into things. The Sky is purple and John F Kennedy is president.

I wrote this over one year ago when I was still seeing him after what he did to me.  Good news is, I no longer have any type of feelings for him other than that I continue to fear him given his bizarre behavior. My ex-boyfriend, Vince, the good looking, charming, soft spoken man who… Continue reading That’s not your neck, it’s your shoulder. I didn’t cause all those bruises…you could have bumped into things. The Sky is purple and John F Kennedy is president.

Uncategorized

This is how he lies. Perfect example of love bombing, omission, deflection…I need to teach a class!

Emails I sent 6 months in through almost the end.  The chat which happened November 1, 2012 is perfect example of how the manipulative he is.  He tried to omit, camouflage a difficult conversation, he then tries to shift focus to coming to see me and when I keep to the point, he hangs up. … Continue reading This is how he lies. Perfect example of love bombing, omission, deflection…I need to teach a class!

Abuser, My Story

After he called me a c&@$

I don’t remember why, but while waiting for a flight in San Francisco to head back to DC, he called me a c&$) - I only remember grabbing my belongings and walking away, crying until we boarded and for most of return flight while he said nothing and acted as though I had done something… Continue reading After he called me a c&@$

Understanding Narcissistic Abuse

Sins of the mother

It was always odd to have to look at their faces with their signature fake smiles, going out of their way to announce what a "happy and normal family" they were.  Not sure who they were trying to convince besides themselves - The ultimate shit show that I'm embarrassed to say I wanted to be… Continue reading Sins of the mother