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More gaslighting, deflection…why didn’t I walk…I’ll never ever know.

I share these because to this day I still question myself.  I question whether I was too...everything he said.  Facts are I tried and I tried...the more I gave the more he took.  This is the sort of thing his mother was doing behind my back.  I'm not angry.  I'm crying because I don't understand… Continue reading More gaslighting, deflection…why didn’t I walk…I’ll never ever know.

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What I want to say to those who make us feel shame.

Someday soon I’m going to make my medical records public so everyone can see the amount of damage my abuser caused.  Someday, everyone will read the hardships he inflicted upon me because I refuse to be shamed for having been abused.  My hope for the non profit I am establishing is to bring awareness so… Continue reading What I want to say to those who make us feel shame.

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RE-Post from December 7. Dangerous Violent Criminal is who you are…

Like a well trained dog I told him it was good to hear his voice. When in fact hearing his voice reminded me of the coward that he is. It makes me sick to think that even now I act impulsively and say things not to upset him. He trained me early on that he… Continue reading RE-Post from December 7. Dangerous Violent Criminal is who you are…

Abuser, Love Bombing, My Story

Our First Date: Dinner. Second Date: Theater. Yours?

I’m writing this because he violently assaulted me by throwing/slamming me into a wall that resulted in severe damages I am still suffering from.  He caused permanent damage that will forever impact how I live and what I can do. I’m not a jilted lover nor unstable.  I’m a survivor of 5.5 years of emotional… Continue reading Our First Date: Dinner. Second Date: Theater. Yours?