My Story

#AndsoIstayed – “Not everyone gets to see poetic justice served for their abuser. Not everyone gets out alive.”

Society’s  attitude towards domestic and emotional abuse is abhorrent because it assumes the victims had a choice or that we must have done something to have provoked it.  Read what Vince’s family and friends say to me and how cruel, horrible and despicable they are.  It’s not a stretch to say they feel gratification from kicking… Continue reading #AndsoIstayed – “Not everyone gets to see poetic justice served for their abuser. Not everyone gets out alive.”

Abuser, Bad Days, Gaslighting

He almost killed me

I am "lucky to be walking and talking" are words I am still wrapping my head around.  That's what I was told.  Vince almost killed me.  That's what he did to me.  And now he is dating - he's found himself a new or perhaps multiple suppliers.  Bastard doesn't have the decency to just disappear… Continue reading He almost killed me

Abuser, Gaslighting, Love Bombing, My Story

My Birthday After The Assault

My birthday is coming up on the 12th and so is his court hearing to have the charges he pled guilty or no contest to deferred.  Last year, in order to soften me up and try and get me to drop the charges,  he took me out to dinner, but paid cash because he didn't… Continue reading My Birthday After The Assault

Abuser, Love Bombing

His Christmas letter…

I am making his “books” that he wrote to me every Christmas public because they are meaningless and because he has gone on living life without any remorse or afterthought after violently attacking me with such force that it caused a severe concussion, which I am still dealing with.  If that wasn’t enough my head… Continue reading His Christmas letter…

Abuser, Healing Stages, Understanding Narcissistic Abuse

Must Read!

i have been feeling down for the last couple of days thinking about him and the "good times"  I realized that my self doubt and heartache and anxiety floods my being when I think of the "good times" because that's the state I was constantly trying to go back to.  He was great in bed,… Continue reading Must Read!

Abuser, Gaslighting, My Story

His crazy ex and how she handled the wedgie…hope the two reunite!

In recent days I have been going over emails, not to rehash, but to re assure myself of what really happened versus his spin he tried and shove down my throat - Self doubt is the result of having been subjected to years of gaslighting, manipulation and guilt trips without realizing or understanding what was… Continue reading His crazy ex and how she handled the wedgie…hope the two reunite!


One year ago…

on the 21st of December I was slammed against the wall by my “partner” - while it’s far from over, trying to heal and move forward from the physical injuries inflicted upon me that night, and the damage to my soul, sense of self and my sanity after enduring 5 years of emotional abuse and… Continue reading One year ago…

My Story

Funny little lies

It's hard to explain the mechanism of Narcissistic Abuse to those who haven't experienced it because the conditioning to drive you crazy starts early.  For example, in my situation the first time he gas lighted me was after I caught him in a lie.  Of course he apologized immediately because that's what they do, but… Continue reading Funny little lies


Hey Abusers!

"Usually adult males who are unable to make emotional connections with the women they choose to be intimate with are frozen in time, unable to allow themselves to love for fear that the loved one will abandon them. If the first woman they passionately loved, the mother, was not true to her bond of love,… Continue reading Hey Abusers!


No contact is the beginning of the healing process.

Healing from Narcissistic abuse has been the most difficult journey I have been on.  It's hard.  It's scary and some days I wonder if I will ever heal.  The video explains a narcissist well.  The more I experienced about his behavior the more fearful I became.  The video explains why.