Gaslighting, Healing Stages, Understanding Narcissistic Abuse

Not Normal Behavior and it scares me…

I’m choosing to be open this drama because I believe it keeps me safe. For now, I'm going to take a break from writing.  I have been told that my safety and my children's safety is in danger since my abuser or someone he knows is getting more aggressive with their bullying method.  I'm not… Continue reading Not Normal Behavior and it scares me…

Abuser, Bad Days, Gaslighting, Healing Stages, My Story, Uncategorized, Understanding Narcissistic Abuse

#nomoreshamingtheabused – kinda like that!

Can't miss kudos, likes, or the praise, but most important, can't miss The MASTER'S TEXT! no no no...:) In the mornings, it ALWAYS accompanied me into the bathroom. Even during my 3 a.m pee break! Gotta have it cause It's the only thing I’m connected to. I'll die if I don't make myself laugh. I have… Continue reading #nomoreshamingtheabused – kinda like that!

Understanding Narcissistic Abuse

Sins of the mother

It was always odd to have to look at their faces with their signature fake smiles, going out of their way to announce what a "happy and normal family" they were.  Not sure who they were trying to convince besides themselves - The ultimate shit show that I'm embarrassed to say I wanted to be… Continue reading Sins of the mother

Abuser, Healing Stages, Understanding Narcissistic Abuse

Narcissistic Abuse is not easy to overcome

i have been feeling down for the last couple of days thinking about him and the "good times"  I realized that my self doubt and heartache and anxiety floods my being when I think of the "good times" because that's the state I was constantly trying to go back to.  Sex was great, we had… Continue reading Narcissistic Abuse is not easy to overcome