Gaslighting, Healing Stages, My Story, Understanding Narcissistic Abuse

Bethany Larson Owner of Counseling Empowerment Center and how she helped my abuser and put me in more danger.

My public reviews on Yelp, Google and Healthgrades were removed because I was not a patient, therefore my experience wasn't first hand.  However, I disagree and believe my experience matters because I was at the receiving end of her diagnosis of me, a person whom she never met or had any dealings with.   I'm not… Continue reading Bethany Larson Owner of Counseling Empowerment Center and how she helped my abuser and put me in more danger.

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Abuser, Gaslighting, Healing Stages, Uncategorized

I have a right to be angry, feel sad and have ups and downs-I was ASSAULTED! Hope new supplier/s reads this.

I was telling a friend about how frustrated I am with not being able to seperate my physical injuries from Vince since he caused them.  Perhaps I'm not conveying the extent of the damages he caused the night he threw me (his own words) against the wall. It was with such force that my head… Continue reading I have a right to be angry, feel sad and have ups and downs-I was ASSAULTED! Hope new supplier/s reads this.

Healing Stages

Sometimes I have to be…

Silly and childish and do something that makes me and only me laugh.. this photo was a joke.  I was with a friend and we tried on wedding dresses.  Girl thing.  No meaning behind it.  Nothing.  She posts it and I hear through the grapevine from his mother is throwing a fit over my having… Continue reading Sometimes I have to be…

Abuser, Gaslighting, Healing Stages, My Story

Why Vince?

  I began this post when I wasn't feeling that great.  Wondering for the millionth time WHY?  there's no answer.  I know that...I ask because I can never imagine being so cruel.  I am far from perfect - I wiped this man's ass taking care of him after three major cycling accidents.  I slept next… Continue reading Why Vince?

Healing Stages, Understanding Narcissistic Abuse

What happens before no contact

When partners of narcissists try to implement “no contact,” the narcissists often try to entice them back into the relationship. Going no-contact with a narcissist is something we do once we are fully aware of what we are dealing with when we want to protect ourselves from further harm– an action taken with the best […]… Continue reading What happens before no contact

Abuser, Bad Days, Healing Stages, My Story

F*&% YOU Vince

I wanted to call you today. No, not because I miss you or because "I love you," which I don't since you're not real, but to ask  how you can live with yourself...I don't get it...yeah, I had some disappointing medical news today, thanks to you throwing me against the wall, and yes, I am… Continue reading F*&% YOU Vince

Abuser, Healing Stages, Understanding Narcissistic Abuse

Must Read!

i have been feeling down for the last couple of days thinking about him and the "good times"  I realized that my self doubt and heartache and anxiety floods my being when I think of the "good times" because that's the state I was constantly trying to go back to.  He was great in bed,… Continue reading Must Read!

Healing Stages, Understanding Narcissistic Abuse

New Ways To Healing

via  ANA You begin in shock. In disbelief. You may suffer from Post Traumatic Stress (I did). As you are beginning to re-remember, the feelings are going to be overwhelming. Every emotion under the sun. Chaotic feelings. Tremendous ambivalence. Anger, hatred, vengefulness, murder, all the really nasty stuff. Terrible, soul-tearing loneliness. This is normal, this… Continue reading New Ways To Healing

Healing Stages, Uncategorized, Understanding Narcissistic Abuse

Getting your life back after Narcissistic Abuse

  I came across this wonderful site today - Check it out Via Soul GPS Newton’s law: Objects that are stationary, tend to remain stationary. Objects that are in motion, tend to be in motion. One of the most difficult things about overcoming narcissistic abuse is shifting the dynamic from dwelling in pain and ruminating on… Continue reading Getting your life back after Narcissistic Abuse

Healing Stages, Uncategorized, Understanding Narcissistic Abuse

Nothing lonelier than being alone, in a relationship…

I began to miss him last night.  I tried fact checking but this time, like so many times in the past, I ignored it.  No, I didn't contact him and don't plan on it, but I also don't want to feel the devastation I feel.  The tightness in my chest that I haven't felt in… Continue reading Nothing lonelier than being alone, in a relationship…