Gaslighting, Healing Stages, My Story, Understanding Narcissistic Abuse

Bethany Larson Owner of Counseling Empowerment Center and how she helped my abuser and put me in more danger.

My public reviews on Yelp, Google and Healthgrades were removed because I was not a patient, therefore my experience wasn't first hand.  However, I disagree and believe my experience matters because I was at the receiving end of her diagnosis of me, a person whom she never met or had any dealings with.   I'm not… Continue reading Bethany Larson Owner of Counseling Empowerment Center and how she helped my abuser and put me in more danger.

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Abuser, Gaslighting, Healing Stages, Uncategorized

I have a right to be angry, feel sad and have ups and downs-I was ASSAULTED! Hope new supplier/s reads this.

I was telling a friend about how frustrated I am with not being able to seperate my physical injuries from Vince since he caused them.  Perhaps I'm not conveying the extent of the damages he caused the night he threw me (his own words) against the wall. It was with such force that my head… Continue reading I have a right to be angry, feel sad and have ups and downs-I was ASSAULTED! Hope new supplier/s reads this.

Abuser, Gaslighting

Emails from Vince’s family calling me a “Dolt” –

Emails are from Mark, Vince's brother in law who is apparently buying Vince's lies.  This is a great example of the narcissist smearing their victim's reputation, and everybody buying it.  I wasn't nice in my response to Mark and stooped low and hit below the belt.  Am I sorry.  At first I wasn't because I've… Continue reading Emails from Vince’s family calling me a “Dolt” –

Abuser, Bad Days, Gaslighting

He almost killed me

I am "lucky to be walking and talking" are words I am still wrapping my head around.  That's what I was told.  Vince almost killed me.  That's what he did to me.  And now he is dating - he's found himself a new or perhaps multiple suppliers.  Bastard doesn't have the decency to just disappear… Continue reading He almost killed me

Abuser, Gaslighting, Healing Stages, My Story

Why Vince?

  I began this post when I wasn't feeling that great.  Wondering for the millionth time WHY?  there's no answer.  I know that...I ask because I can never imagine being so cruel.  I am far from perfect - I wiped this man's ass taking care of him after three major cycling accidents.  I slept next… Continue reading Why Vince?

Abuser, Gaslighting, Love Bombing, My Story

My Birthday After The Assault

My birthday is coming up on the 12th and so is his court hearing to have the charges he pled guilty or no contest to deferred.  Last year, in order to soften me up and try and get me to drop the charges,  he took me out to dinner, but paid cash because he didn't… Continue reading My Birthday After The Assault

Abuser, Gaslighting, My Story

His crazy ex and how she handled the wedgie…hope the two reunite!

In recent days I have been going over emails, not to rehash, but to re assure myself of what really happened versus his spin he tried and shove down my throat - Self doubt is the result of having been subjected to years of gaslighting, manipulation and guilt trips without realizing or understanding what was… Continue reading His crazy ex and how she handled the wedgie…hope the two reunite!

Gaslighting, My Story

a covert’s way of handling a wedgie :)

I feel silly posting this but I have come to realize those of us who have experienced a relationship with monsters tell the stories to validate what really happened vs what they wanted us to think happened.  For me, where I am at today, re reading the emails and going over what happened is helping… Continue reading a covert’s way of handling a wedgie 🙂

Abuser, Gaslighting, My Story, Uncategorized

Blood Sucking Vulture

Written by Danny Pool Falling into the abyss, fading into blackening sadness. The darkness consumes me, an infinite pain with no end in sight. A life sentence too much to bear. Don’t wake me, I’m addicted to this. Nothing else to feel, gonna be here a while. Banished to this world, abandoned and deserted. A […]… Continue reading Blood Sucking Vulture