Random thoughts..I think Kristin reads my mind because lately I have been wondering what in God’s name could I miss about “us” when there isn’t anything I can list. I have began to run. Slow, not more then a mile or two and lots of walking since it’s still difficult given the inner ear trauma… Continue reading What We Miss About the narcissist and my realization that there’s nothing special about Christine or anyone before or me or after me – ! Wooohooo
I wrote a long page then deleted. I'm grateful for this article because it reminded me to think of me first and that telling the truth is the only option no matter how it impacts those who choose to hurt intentionally. It's not up to me to protect my abuser or his ex wife. I… Continue reading Three experts explain why forgiving a narcissist shouldn’t be your top priority –
He is cruel and selfish and he doesn't believe omissions are lies. We'll see how that works out in court for him. His GF from late 80's until early 90's described him as a man who was emotionally unavailable, as did his ex wife, calling him emotionally devoid and detached. His youngest son once described… Continue reading Thank You Christine for Acknowledging Vince is devoid of emotion and is cruel. Nice we agree on so many things.
Perhaps I don’t need to worry about forgiving him, but rather forgiving myself, and learning to make peace and feeling comfortable in my own skin when I admit I did love him. I still love the person I thought he was. I have never felt that way before - I cared for him when he… Continue reading It’s okay to admit I loved him.
I’m not great at expressing myself when it comes to trying to describe how the emotional abuse I endured during the 5.5 years I was with my abuser, Vince Beggs, has impacted my life. But today, being seven floors underground in the heart of the World Trade Center, within the archaeological space where the 9/11 Museum’s… Continue reading What being emotionally raped and gutted feels like
I am in New York with my daughter. We took the bus which was a first for me since I usually drive, but can’t anymore thanks to my abuser and the violence he unleashed on me December 2016. I realized when I leave DC I'm able to breath, feel alive and truly feel he's somewhat… Continue reading Empty Cold Eyes
A person who does this should probably look into why. It’s not always everyone else’s fault. On Apr 17, 2013, at 5:01 PM, Vesta <email@example.com> wrote: The mind works in mysterious ways...months ago you shared Christine's desire for you to explore your childhood in order to "fix" your dysfunctions responsible for causing the marriage to fail.… Continue reading Christine should take her own advice!