I have not read the emails or texts from last night and will do so when I am done with my ride.
2017 is going to be better for us. We needed something to shake us each out of patterns we followed this past year that were not healthy, both personally and as a couple. While the events of the past couple weeks have been horrible and I regret my part terribly and hope you can forgive me in some way in the future, they are a turning point we can use to our advantage to not fall into past patterns. I am not a monster or a danger but that’s obviously something you need to judge for yourself.
My hope for 2017 is that we are both healthier, mentally and physically. That we recognize our own failings, actively work on them and give each other and others in our lives the space, time and benefit of the doubt, recognizing we either are acting out of love or fear. Let’s live our lives out of love. I will do my best to understand which is driving me and when I see I am functioning out of fear I will try to turn my actions towards love.
I promise I will read and respond to everything this afternoon. Let’s give 2017 a chance.