When you are healing from emotional and physical abuse, you feel all sorts of emotion from rage to self blame to sadness, humiliation and on and on….This was me last year. He was sending me Grateful Emails until the 28th of August. He also had been paying for all of my medical bills and Uber since I couldn’t drive at all. I still can’t. I drive local but I may never be able to drive at night but hey, they can go ahead and believe whatever they want since a court room doesn’t give a damn what they think. It will be about the facts. It’s comforting to know his vile behavior is actually helping me so it’s all good. What I’ve learned is it’s important to trust the universe, god, karma and that there’s a reason for everything and so now after years of being muzzled and gaslighted the one thing that has tortured me for years is finally getting the attention it deserves, and they are the ones that made it happen. Grateful. So, I will endure the hardship because I know it’s just a matter of time that truth will prevail.
So, I lost my train of thought…Welcome to brain trauma. Check back in tomorrow and maybe I would have remembered what I was going to say. In the mean time, to my abuser who checks on this site, daily, several times a day, #timesup you violent, dangerous criminal.
Oh yes…back to the email I posted! I remember…I stopped wanting to see him in person early August. He wrote emails every day but then decided to stop paying for my medical bills that he was responsible for. I hadn’t yet retained an attorney because I was hoping he would do the right thing. He was drinking Bethany’s Kool Aid so he thought what he was going to do was somehow going to prove I was lying about what was wrong with me. Well, right around the same time I learned what was behind my symptoms and why I wasn’t getting well. Lacking any sense of human decency he didn’t tell me he was going to stop paying. That’s the financial abuse part of the cycle of abuse. He wouldn’t answer me and he stopped talking to me until September 4. So we went from Grateful Emails and trying to see me to nothing. He had to gain control of the situation and to the discarding so he can tell everyone he stopped contact. But I learned in December, and he confirmed via texts that he had my computer on his account which gave him the ability to track me. He’s a monster. A horrible horrible human being and karma is catching up to him. Forgot to mention he made his blog public in October to bait me. He’s sick. Not normal. A cold hearted bastard.
By the way, I’m not borderline. I was being sarcastic because his ignorant LPC diagnosed me without ever meeting me and after only one or two sessions with him. Never taking into consideration there are two sides to every story and that he caused a concussion when he attacked me. That gave him the free pass to be even more abusive and began to use sex to control. More on that later…he’s a sick puppy, a really sick puppy.