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That’s not your neck, it’s your shoulder. I didn’t cause all those bruises…you could have bumped into things. The Sky is purple and John F Kennedy is president.

I wrote this over one year ago when I was still seeing him after what he did to me.  Good news is, I no longer have any type of feelings for him other than that I continue to fear him given his bizarre behavior.

My ex-boyfriend, Vince, the good looking, charming, soft spoken man who I find I still have feelings for because I am crazy, did this to me.  I am posting these more for my own sanity than any other reason.  Being with him took a toll on my mental health.  He gaslighted me each time he lied or needed to get his way.  I am ashamed to admit it but he did it again to me yesterday. Yep, I saw him and one of his lies came out and it was as if nothing had changed.  He first yelled at me when I tried to talk.  He then threw his back pack on his chair and stopped talking to me.  It was here that I actually got scared.

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6 thoughts on “That’s not your neck, it’s your shoulder. I didn’t cause all those bruises…you could have bumped into things. The Sky is purple and John F Kennedy is president.”

    1. Thank you for reminding me. Each time I have tried to cut contact he reaches out with some BS card or email and it sends me into a whirlwind. I start with hating him, wanting him, hating myself, then getting so tired I can’t think anymore. I truly believe he’s trying to get me to commit suicide. He has no remorse. NONE. Full of anger. I so appreciate your support. You are the angel I needed tonight to remind me he’s sick. He is really really sick.

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      1. He is SICK! You are right to think that he is probably trying to send you off the deep end…don’t let evil win! I can barely see these kinds of abusers as human…they are just pure, spirited evil. They can’t change…and wouldn’t if they could.
        I don’t remember how I found your blog, but I am glad I did. I used blogging for healing much in the way you do…it really helps.

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      2. Thank you so much for reaching out and reminding me to blog. I can not find a support group in my area. It’s maddening so I feel very alone – You have no idea how you have saved me tonight. I mean that…thank you thank you thank you.

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      3. You are not alone…it can be hard to find support groups if you don’t have a domestic violence center. Churches tend to keep quiet about them (especially where I am- in the South). I look forward to reading your journey.💕

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