I’m coming off as crazy while this son of a bitch plays with my life. Using Spotify to tell me he’s sorry the week before (April 4, 2018) our court hearing that was prompted by him filing a false complaint he didn’t show up for. I really wish his crazy ex wife would stop believing… Continue reading Spotify, their last email and the mind F&@$
I wish that they would leave me alone. The ex wife’s ego is so bruised that she can’t think straight. I have asked from the beginning to be left alone but he doesn’t. He knows how I operate and he does things knowing I will react. I am still in preemptive mode and I’m doing… Continue reading Crowdfunding
Let me acknowledge that I am not the best writer and I know I’m all over the place with one day being done talking about the various incidents and the next being upset and sharing he lied about who he shaves his pubes for. A dry sense of humor and sarcasm is my coping mechanism… Continue reading It’s a process…
NOT! But he was expecting me to react by calling after I saw his “apology” - When Vince was charged for assault we couldn’t communicate directly so he started a blog and Spotify playlist. Of course I wanted it because I foolishly believed he loved me and wanted me, and he did, up until February… Continue reading What sort of a human being does this? THIS IS NOT NORMAL BEHAVIOR!!!
Omissions...this is how it works. He's not denying having thrown things at me at close distance. He's just finding fault with my thinking it would have been appropriate to call the police. God forbid if I was to stand up for myself. I should have expected he was full of crap when he immediately came… Continue reading Deflect, gaslight, and deflect some more.
If you say the sky is blue the Narcissist will somehow negate the possibility of it being blue to make you wrong. The Narcissist may even hint that you have certain psychological issues concerning your thoughts about the sky being blue. The Narcissist will back it up with concerns that your friends, family, or associates […]… Continue reading The Sky is Purple. You’re not well or otherwise you would know the sky is purple! My world with abuser and his ex wife.
Raindrops and birds chirping remind me of mornings we woke together with his nude body wrapped around mine. I loved sleeping next to him and being held all through the night, until morning light. I remember how he pulled me back close to him if I changed positions. On nights like these when my mind… Continue reading It’s Four In The Morning and I want him to get real help…sigh
Came across this article on LinkedIn - It reminded me of everything my abuser is NOT but believes he is. He once told me he begins the conversation with his subordinates where he wants it to start, and by the end of the meeting they believe they came up with a brand new idea when… Continue reading A Good Leader
I love Kristen's blog. She writes with such clarity explaining with such detail every excruciating aspect of having been in a relationship with with a narcissist and what Narcissistic Abuse does to a person. When I read her work it's as if she has reached into the deepest part of my soul where the… Continue reading HE RAPED MY SOUL!
Wanting separation from Vince was the last thing she wanted. I was reminded of how right my gut was about what my future would look like after I read an email I sent myself days after meeting his ex-wife. It wasn't just he who gutted me, her actions over the past 5.5 years made me… Continue reading “I really need some separation from Vince”